the perfect timing

Time has always been difficult for me. Understanding it in the world, balancing it in my life and planning for it in the future. 

It's the reality of life. The calendar that the world has established to ground people. 

But at an early age I knew it was important. It mattered to me how I ordered my time.

I remember when I was in middle school/high school I had a calendar planner always with me. I liked planning things to write into a spiral notebook that was ordered with boxes with numbers, times, and holidays. Reminders for birthdays, vacations and contacts. People in my life that I cared about.

Looking back at it now it ended up being more like a journal.

But when it comes to knowing God and trusting his timing I've found myself looking for a planner that he's written for me. That somehow he scripted something specific for me that I can access and read and assure myself of His plan and purposes for my life. 

It clearly doesn't exist in the format of what I expected but I believe the Bible is my best affirmation of God's faithfulness and promises to come. There are also the miracles and testimony of His consistency in my own life. 

And then there is the Holy Spirit, who is the filter in my everyday life, my peace, and my greatest treasure.

I've heard it said before "Hope shines brightest in the darkest and broken places." And I completely agree. I think in the times in our life that aren't planned in our calendar that's where we search for God with more awareness. The unexpected realities that we face become our greatest opportunity to see God move and lean on His promises.

I'm not the most positive of people but I preach this truth to myself daily.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
    and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
    and he will make straight your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6

It's ok to lean heavy on Jesus, He can handle it and wants us to. 

-jdw