Sleeping in Transition

I've been chewing on this thought for a few weeks now as I enter back into the writing world. 

Have I been sleeping in this crazy life transition?

The last two months really have been full of stress and change. Really normal stuff (moving houses, jobs, and life style) but it's felt like a heavy tent hovering over my head. And it came all at once. It felt like it was raining constantly on my tent in the middle of the forest and all I was trying to do was keep the holes from forming along the seams so I would stay dry and comfortable. 

I'm still kinda fresh in the unknown season really. The rain has died down and I'm feeling my way through the effects of decisions made by and for me. Some good, some I'm not so sure about, and most just realistic realities.

But I read this quote today and kinda pushed me to write this post:

"Vulnerability is not winning or losing; it's having the courage to show up and be seen when we have no control over the outcome." -Brene Brown

It's from this book I'm reading called "Rising Strong". I highly recommend it.

Brene talks about how we are all wired to tell our stories. To share in community the narrative of our lives. Apparently we actually crave hearing and sharing our stories as humans together.

To not be alone.

Pretty amazing thought. And I've actually realized it makes since.

And as I think about it usually when I'm inspired it's from; a book I've read about someone's life or a conversation I've had about someone's testimony or a revelation someone has had about their personal growth. Could also be advice from someone who's had a similar experience or just an encouragement in the chaos. 

Growing and living aren't always the easiest of things in life. And knowing my introvertedness is a part of who I am helps me feel ok with the realities I face and how I react to things.

So as I post this being vulnerable and courageous in not having control over life I'll leave you with this quote from C.S. Lewis. "Courage is not simply one of the virtues, but the form of every virtue at the testing point."

I definitely don't have it all figured out (or even remotely really) but I know that I'm not alone in the tent pressured by rain. Jesus promised to be always with me and believe me I know He is here.

And the cool thing about Jesus is He can be with You just as much as with me at the same time.

-jdw